The Almost End of The Year For 2014

The almost end of the year has come. What would I do to make everything become a perfect year? I wonder… Sometime I am not sure if I can do it or not, because many things happen in my life. They are so many that I couldn’t describe how I feel it inside me. I will slowly explain how I said my life has become worst than I ever expected it to happen, never a time where my life is great and happy. Always, I mean always never the time I get the happy ending…

Here it goes then; first of all, I never could say “no” to anyone who I am almost close with or friends with. I always gave them what they want and then they never appreciate it instead they hate me and talk about me behind my back or treat me like a piece of shit. But I was too stupid to not see it unless someone told me and gave advices about how stupid and idiotic I can be…

Second is that I follow what they told me to do, I never could shake my head or saying “no” to them instead I always nodded my head and saying “ok” or “yeah sure, alright then.’ Seriously I need to stop being so stupid and be besotted by everyone who treated me like a piece of shit. I should let people to respect me as how I respect them, I don’t want to be their puppet anymore.

After what happens, and how I found out the truth behind of your lies and sweet talk. I now have to be more careful around you. Even if I act your friend but I can not act like I normal do, because how you really treat me is so hurtful and unforgivable. You support me and give me great advice, I thought you care for me and really a good friend of mine but I was damn wrong about you all the time. Now, I don’t have anything anymore, I don’t know how to face this feeling anymore of hurtful. I’ve been hurt since I was little and now this is way more hurtful than my past.

And it is why I hope before this year end, I want to have everything be good and nothing bad. Just another memories to be remember when it’s already 3-5 years later, where I become a successful woman. I don’t want no regrets to remember, just another sweet loving memories to laugh and smile about. I want a beautiful last year of 2014. So I pray it will happen, only God knows everything. Always be sure to work hard on what you want, then you get what you achieve for.

This is my story of “The Almost End of The Year For 2014”

You Should Have Know

You should know why I meant to be hurt and let you break me instead the other way around. I was scared to see what will coming in the future. I wanted to protect you and make sure you have the best life in your future.

I want the best for you. I want to see you happy again. I want you to be love and not you loving someone. It also to avoid you being hurt if you gives your heart away easily towards the person you only knows not too long.

There are nothings I could do to stop you from being yourself. Although it will hurt you to fake something you aren’t suppose too.

Everything I do, I do it for your own good whether you like it or not. I do it just to see your smiling face again. Those pretty faces of yours make me hard to denied the love u had it for you.  Hard for me to let you go.

All my friends told me, I have to let things go especially letting you go so you can have the love you always wanted. Be with someone you cannot live without it, not someone you can live with. There are differences thing you should take note.

Now you know why I should let you go and make you hurt a little bit. It is all because I can’t give you anything like all the guys out there can give what you wanted including a true love. I’m sorry for hurting you but I’m not sorry for loving you dearly.

Goodbye!

Sincerely Your Ex

Ilzah Y.

“Be strong and face the facts of reality”